Sunday, December 30, 2007

Decline and Fall of an Empire

After standing guard over the kitchen and my sanity for a week, fending off assailants and irritants of both, Mr. Carrot Zombie fell into ill health and descended into the depths, to return circuitously to the ground from whence he came.








(**After this send-off of my tuber friend, if I ever have an apartment/house where I have a garbage disposal, I am seriously considering naming it "Sheol" because I could giggle any time any unsuspecting vegetable descended into it. Plus, have you ever looked inside a garbage disposal? Nasty place.**)

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Mr. Carrot Zombie.






Merry Christmas!

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

a treatise on the effects of snow

I got to go for a walk in the woods while it was snowing today. It was charming, delightful, beautiful, serene. I had lots of lovely descriptions of it in my head, but I'm not going to write them out now - maybe later.

Snow makes me feel very impish - childlike, playful, mischievous, joyful. Impish. It makes me bite my lip and smile and stick my tongue between my teeth in sheer delight. It makes me want to skip and slide and sled and jump and draw in the snow and throw it. I was a good little girl today and kept my hands in the pockets so as to not ruin the snow for other people because I was on a public trail, but that was very hard to do. I don't think I'm the only person for whom snow is like this, or at least I hope not. Not that I need validation in numbers, but I need playmates.

I also sincerely hope that I never become so deplorably or hopelessely grown up as to dislike snow. I think that day would mark the utter destruction of my inner child and would be a day of great mourning. Somehow I doubt I'm at serious risk of that, though, knowing me and knowing snow.

I don't know what day God created snow, but praise Him that He did!

Monday, November 19, 2007

Governmental law vs. Grace

This is something that I have idly pondered before, thought fairly hard about this summer due to some events and some reading, and am fully wrestling with now due to circumstances I'm not going to post about here:

What exactly is the intersection between government legality/justice and grace? How do we as Christians legally respond when we are victimized?

We pray for God to help us "forgive us our debts/trespasses as we forgive our debtors/those who trespass against us." We are also told to submit to the ruling powers and authorities. So when we are victimized or witness a crime - what do we do?

We could go for justice and demand what is "rightfully ours", whether it be time, money, posessions, peace of mind, or revenge. Submit to the authorities, demand legal observance. Send them to jail or court, sue if we must. That sounds harsh, of course, but we do it every day, when we submit insurance claims or report a crime that we see.

Or we could turn the other cheek, let the perpetrator go. We do that too, but often out of fear of getting involved rather than out of charity and care.

So which do we strive for? If we don't turn in a theif, murderer, fraud, whatever they've done, don't persecute them - we serve them. Maybe, like Jean ValJean in Les Miserables, they learn their lesson, see Christ, and spend their lives serving others. But maybe we only set them free to recidivism, and maybe they go on to cheat and steal and rape other people - then we've not only failed to serve them, but we've failed to serve those around us whom they vicitmize next, and the authorities. Theoretically only God can know that answer. But that still leaves the quandary - what do we do?

It may be my non-confrontational attitude speaking, but I can't help but think that as Christians we should be leaning more towards forgiveness, especially when it comes to grievances against ourselves. Often this is characterized as being a "doormat", particularly when the victim themselves refuses to take action, a name that strips it of its dignity. But didn't Christ lay down His life for those who hated Him and even killed Him? Those who trespass against us become our adversaries - but aren't they the ones we are to love the most? And how are we to do so? Does Christ really mean to forgive - really? Even criminals?

The Sunday school answer seems obvious, but wrapped up in our judicial system and sense of "right and wrong", it's not. Even practically, we would cringe at the mere ideas of being wrongly fired, getting cheated out of insurance, or any other such thing without recompense.

So where do forgiveness and governmental justice intersect? And is that intersection that we see the one that God desires, or the one that we construct to be convenient in our lives?

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

petites choses

At the moment, just about every aspect of my life is up in the air. School, work, church, dancing, living place, how long and where for any of those. It's a little crazy, and things aren't progressing as well as I'd have liked, particularly with respect to grad school. It'd be great if you could pray for God's direction & encouragement in all of those things, because I look around and feel fairly helpless (not necessarily a bad thing, from God's point of view, I suppose).

But.

God's been giving me little things to make me smile. I suppose living by myself made me more willing to laugh out loud alone, because, well, no one's around, so what does it matter? It doesn't feel awkward anymore, and it's pretty cool. So, Thanksgiving's around the corner, maybe this is an early post, but things that have made me smile this week:

- I'm so excited that I get to hang out with my friends this week! On multiple days! You have no idea how happy this made me.

- the "Happy Song" was on the radio just now, and it makes me laugh because we often sang it at staff Fireside but never knew the complete lyrics so the verses were always rather garbled.

- Reading both "Leviathan" and "tohu bohu" in Les Mis made my day.

- I found cute shoes for dancing. Women's shoes. At the first store I looked for some. That's aboslutely unheard of - it usually takes upward of 2 years for me to find anything but athletic sneakers (easier because I can just buy guys' shoes for those).

- It's great to see fall again, and to smell it. I missed the smell of fall. Hopefuly I'll get to smell that lovely snow-eve smell soon!

- I can't even figure out what some of them are, there have just been moments of (solitary) laughter over the past few days that have made them bearable, and I'm thankful for those. Hopefully I'm not just going 100% off my rocker and becoming delusional.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

the Mulberry Tree

Every year the first frost heralds the oncoming winter. The frost is late this year, and sudden after a very warm fall. Before today, many of the trees still retained their green leaves. As I look out at the woods and the mountain now, though, the foliage is decidedly yellow-orange and beginning to fall.

The first frost has always been a bit of a special event in our back yard. Twenty yards from our kitchen windows towers a male mulberry tree. He's tall and old, and his trunk is nearly 3 1/2 feet across. His branches are gnarled and arthritic, the lower branches overshadowed, dying, and occassionally snapping. The leaves are waxy and heavy - not as much as magnolia leaves, but far heavier than your average maple or elm.

The mulberry holds and hoards its leaves as long as it can, no matter how yellow they are. It clutches them tightly until the first frost, when it lets go and the leaves rain to the ground. Last night it had all of its leaves. As I looked out the window this morning, only half were left. Over the next hour, it lost another quarter. If it frosts again tomorrow, the mulberry will be left bare, its gnarled and naked fingers stretched out towards the sky while at its feet lies a thick carpet of leaves. Usually that carpet is a glorious yellow; our golden retriever used to stand out there and bark and bark as those yellow leaves fell all around him. This year fall has come late and caught the green leaves by surprise. Our backyard is now under a blanket of bright, bright green.

Maybe it seems silly to describe one tree's loss of leaves, but in our house, it's almost a tradition to wait for and watch the raining mulberry. I don't draw any allegories or life lessons from it; I just watch and enjoy. You would too if you could see it.

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Philadelphia freedom...shine a light

Goin' home tomorrow! The apartment's all cleaned up, work's almost all cleaned up. It's actually hard to believe I'm done here, but it has been 5 1/2 months - longer than a spring semester of college.

Anyway, I'll be back to Philly to dive into grad school applications head first since I'm getting a late start. Oh yeah, change of plans - applying for Bio PhD's. May be a little frenetic or hard to get a hold of for the next few weeks because of that but hey, at least my phone will work there. Pray for God's will to be done in the whole grad school thing, too. As always, it's all up to Him. I'm stoked though, and it's exciting to be thinking like a scientist again. Speaking of science: 1111 turtles. No, I'm not kidding. Named up through Abijah (I think; I forgot to write down exactly which name I ended on; rather, I threw out the paper with all the names on it while cleaning) 1 Chron 29.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Countdown

I'm now 2 weeks away from leaving MD, and I'm extremely excited. It still seems unreal, possibly because I'll be counting turtles up until the end; but I'm glad that it's here. I'm excited to see my friends & family in Philly again. I'm excited to be working towards grad school and I'm looking forward to having a community that I can engage in and that I can settle in for more than 5 months. I'm looking forward to living with people again - I've never been good at living with people, but living alone has shown me how much I really do need to share a home with others. I'm sad to leave my few friends that I have here...but that's still a couple weeks away, I don't have to deal with that yet. It would've been nice to have been more involved in the community here. Hopefully when I'm in school and when I'm a teacher I'll be able to do so. Oh yeah, and I'm looking forward to hugs. Other than when my parents visited me, I think the last one I got was...July 29th? And visiting with y'all & catching up, at least those in the Philly area.

Other than that, not much is going on. This month-and-a-half long drought has prevented the turtles from hatching (the ground is too hard for them to dig out), so work has been boring. Other than that day a few weeks ago with the camera (previous post). There's tons of bald eagles all over the island now though, which is kinda cool. And caterpillars (a type of "woolybear", the salt marsh caterpillar, Estigmene acrea). And mutated crickets from the mosquito spray. All interesting to see, although I fritter most of my day away sitting on the toolchest in the shed inventing things to do (1.5 hrs of work to be done every day. On the island for 3-12 hrs. Hence lots of frittering).

Anyway, 'tis all, 'tis all. Philly soon! Oh, wonderful!

Friday, October 5, 2007

fun times part 2

You can access the awesome video I made of the cute little turtles by searching for "La Naissance, la mer, et la liberte" on YouTube.

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

fun times

I had fun at work today. For the first time since I slid down that cliff a month and a half ago. Woohoo!

Can't tell you why though, you'll just have to wait a week or so to see. Mwa ha ha ha ha ha ha...

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Sar Shalom

Ps. 34:14
Depart from evil and do good;
seek peace, and pursue it.

This is a stark contrast from the meek and mild "Oh, I've just got to be patient and maybe one day peace will fall into my lap if God decides to give it to me." Yes, peace is a gift. But we are meant to seek it, to pursue it, not just wait for it with a gnashing of teeth until it gets there.
Pursue: "radaph" - to run after
Seek: "baqash" - to search out, to strive after, to request. specifically used in worship or prayer.

How? Doesn't it seem like an oxymoron to fervently look for and run after peace?

Yes, if by peace you mean sheer comfort.

No, if you consider that Jesus is Sar Shalom*, Prince of Peace. "Sar" implies rulership and governance, from a verb that means to have dominion. Jesus isn't just the sub-ruler (like we think of "prince"), nor is He just excessively anti-confrontational ("the best at peace"). Peace is His to bestow, and it's His to control.

Peace isn't found in things being calmed or solved or made clear - it's found the Prince. And found more abundantly if we run towards Him, rather than away from Him, if we seek to spend time with Him rather than figuring out our lives and making ourselves secure, rather than sitting and waiting and twiddling our thumbs for peace and letting anxiety build and fester inside. Peace isn't denying that things are out of (our) control, nor is it succumbing to the 'whelming flood. Any peace that you get without coming to the Prince won't last, really.

^Above were things God showed me one night when I was being anxious over career stuff and whether or not teaching was really right. And you know what? It's great that I have so many options, but no single one is "right". Which career I choose is not crucial, so long as I glorify God in what I do. And I feel that teaching is one arena where I can definitely do that while growing in Him as well. And that peace...was found when I stopped worrying and let Sar Shalom take care of it.

*my Hebrew grammar is probably poor and these words may be in the wrong order.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

postmodern to a t

I've been thinking a lot lately about dreams and aspirations - namely, why would God give me/allow me to have unattainable dreams for what I want to do with my life? And I've been wrestling with that, partly because of trying to figure out if it's something I should try hard to achieve despite difficulty or if it's something to let go of and let God fill the space with something else.

Inadvertently or semi-consciously, though, I've been looking for the answer to this question to determine the nature of God - is He cruel and vindictive, and am I doomed to crushed dreams for the rest of my life? Clearly we know the answer is "no". But postmodern me can say "no" in my head and "but what I see is..." in my heart.

You see, I'm ridiculously postmodern, particularly about this one area of my life. I formulate my idea of God based on my experiences of Him. I treat my life like an inductive Bible study, reading between the lines and searching for meanings and chiasms and themes and a picture of God that I can apply to my life. This is so faulty, though. The Bible is God-breathed and true; my life as I perceive it is an interpretation. My version of my life and someone else's version of it would be very different. Trying to interpret my life, therefore, is double the interpretation, 2 degrees away from truth. It's not that God can't be met and known from His general revelation in our lives. But we can't base our image of Him on life alone.

Which brings us to the trite but true conclusion that to know God, we've gotta read the Bible. Why? Because it's the truth about who God is, untainted by our own perceptions. And no, it rarely lines up with our perceptions of who He is. I'm very good at reading a passage about God's goodness when I'm hurting and seeking comfort and instead of taking the solace He gives there, I go "yeah, but what about how I feel now?" So postmodern!

But whether I like it or not...how I perceive God doesn't change who He is. God is God. God is who He says in the Bible, whether I fully believe it or not. And there's a disjunction between what I see and who He is that is difficult to overcome. The best comparison in human terms is when you're away from someone for a long time and they change, be it a little or drastically, for better or for worse, and when you finally see them again you either can't see the new, better person they are or you miss who they were before they changed to be someone you don't like.

So I guess where that puts me is...really, what I'm feeling about what God's doing (or permitting, or not doing, or whatever the case may be) in my life doesn't change who He is. And despite the sharp contrast I've got to keep digging into the true Text and finding God there to check my self-generated image of Him.

You sweep away what we treasure

Our salute to you tumbles out:
Lord, sovereign, governor, king
political images of us before, gender specific,
marked by macho.
Sometimes we speak the terms glibly, out of habit.
Sometimes we speak them with gravity, counting on you.
But sometimes we are brough up short to see,
yet again,
that you are not kidding: you are other than us.
you will not be mocked.
Lord, sovereign, governor, king:
In your will you sweep away what we treasure,
We watch...and you sweep away a range of our idolatries,
apartheid...but not yet racism,
military regimes...but not yet our superopwer,
heresies....but not yet our self-indulgence.
You, you who sweep away and purge,
Sweep yet the systems of disobedience all around us,
sweep yet the networks of self-securing we treasure,
sweep yet our own childhoods that trap us,
sweep yet our little loves that disable us,
sweep yet our little fears that rob us of you,
sweep yet and make new.
Do your Friday sweep yet again, and
suit us for your Sunday governance. Amen.

-Walter Brueggemann, Awed to Heaven, Rooted in Earth

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

A harrowing, dangerous adventure: becoming Indiana Jones

It was a warm, sunny day on the barren island. The researcher and her assistant had arrived late that morning and had much to do, for the invaluable lives of infant Malaclemys terrapin specimens must not be wasted. Observing how the hours and heat so pressed in upon them, they divided their work for the morning. The assistant stayed at the base preparing materials for work later in the day, while the researcher mounted her trusty two-wheeled steed in search of the turtle hatchlings.

As she rode to check the nests, a mild breeze blew across the island, lessening the sun's assault. At first the day seemed normal, with few hatchlings and many mosquitoes and flies. Then she reached: the nest.

Two months ago a turtle had laid this nest, so far from all the other nests on the island. The turtle had climbed up the sandy beach on the island, across the dirt and gravel road, and to the sand on the other side of the road. But this was no ordinary sand. This was a sand cliff.

Pardon me one moment to explain this sand cliff. Every visitor of beach or sandbox knows that dry sand has no collective shape and falls, drifts, and blows in every direction under the slightest force. Yet, when you add water and shape it, in a castle, mound, or dyke, it will hold its shape for quite a while, even while dry. It will hold its shape, that is, until a greater force destroys it. So was this sand cliff: constructed of wet sand, then allowed to dry. It withstood the island's fierce weather for years. Dry, loose sand on top, and hardened sand below. A 10-foot, 55-degree incline of sand on top, followed by a 10-foot drop to soft ground and murky water below. The two planes were separated and maintained by a small barricade of grasses and shrubs on the very edge.

Two months ago, this very pregnant mother turtle, seeking the best nesting habitat for her brood, chose this precipice. Two months ago, the researcher and her assistant had slid down the cliff to find the nest and uncover, examine, and re-cover the eggs. Two months later, they placed a cage over it, as with all of the other nests, to catch the hatchlings so they could examine and release them, rather than let them fall 10 feet off the cliff. They went out of their way every day for three weeks to check this nest.

Then, on this sunny, warm, blue-skied day, the researcher went to check the nest, again expecting to see smoothed-over sand and no hatchlings. She dismounted from her two-wheeled steed, climbed off the road to the top of the sand incline, looked, turned away - and looked again.

The sand in the middle of the nest was cracked. Cracked? Hatchlings dig a hole, they don't crack the sand. She looked closer. The sand on the downhill side of the nest was gone and the water was a mere two feet below the nest. In fact, some of the sand under the nest was missing.

Two weeks ago, the engineers had begun filling in this man-made crater, which the cliff took part in surrounding, with mud and water, and the water level had slowly risen. Or it had risen not so slowly, considering that it had soared 14 feet in two weeks in an area of at least 2 two three square miles. The water had eroded away the vegetation beyond and the sand beneath the nest. The edge of the cage hung precipitously over the water, the water that seemed so perniciously bent on plunging the infant turtles, still nestled safely underground, to their precocious death.

These turtles, upon hatching, often stay in their underground nest for some time, nursing upon their internal yolks and growing stronger. Knowing that the turtles were likely alive, hatched, and unaware of their imminent doom, the researcher decided there was only one thing to do: save them.

She loosened her back pack and set it by the road, to lessen her weight on the sliding and collapsing cliff. She slid down the soft incline to within a few feet of the nest, put down the bags that she usually put collected hatchlings in, and removed the top of the cage to begin to dig. Unfortunately, she couldn't reach far enough. She slid closer. The cliff started to collapse. She scrambled backwards as carefully as possible.

"I should really have someone here, with a rope around me, to make sure I don't fall in," she thought, wondering which other worker on the island she ought to call. Then she realized, "Oh, crud. The radio's in my backpack. By the road."

Not wanting to turn back, for fear of both the nest's demise and her own, she decided to risk it and try to rescue the turtles. On the other side of the nest some more sand had fallen off the cliff, creating what seemed like a somewhat solid mound of sand. She scooted over to the other side of the nest and put her foot on the sand. It wasn't solid, at all.

She started to slide off the edge of the cliff.

Minorly panicked, she really wished she had the radio, then leaned back to keep from falling so quickly. Then she noticed that one of the shrubs from the edge of the cliff had fallen onto the pile of sand at least a day ago. No matter when it fell, it was there. She stretched her foot, rested her toe on the woody stem of the shub and was safe. For now.

Balanced on the stem and within reach of the nest, she began to dig carefully, so as not to catapult the hatchlings into the deep that extended mere inches below her. Digging, not finding, sand sliding away from the nest, and then her fingers finally grazed the shell of a hatchilng. Success! Or the beginning of it, maybe. She pulled out the first hatchling, looked around for the bags, stretched; yet they were out of reach. What to do with the hatchlings now? Her hat would slide down the hill. She needed her hands. Aha! The aluminum ring around the nest; but if she removed that, then more of the cliff would crumble away.

That was a risk she'd have to take.

And take it she did. She pulled up the ring, gingerly turned behind her (remember, she was standing on a stem on loose sand over an abyss) and pushed the ring into the sand, then set the hatchling inside. Sand slid into the hole she had already dug, filled it, and overflowed, falling over the edge. Time to dig, and quickly, before she lost them all.

Carefully, quickly she dug. One, two, five, eight. Dig more, dig more - her fingers arrived at one turtle still in its shell, still attached to its yolk, apparently dead. She looked more closely - what was this? A second turtle attached to the yolk - twins! Possibly siamese turtles! This turtle, though dead, had to come back with her, in the name of science and complete fascination. Gently placing the creature away from the other hatchlings, she continued to dig. Twelve hatchlings in all, safe in the ring.

Now it was time for all of them to return to solid ground. Easier said than done.

She again turned around carefully, slowly, on her stem, to face the ever-eroding bank, because there was no way she was going to scoot backwards up that cliff without pitching face-first into the water. Only now did she realize that she was fully over the edge of the cliff, supported above the murky abyss by only a 1 1/2 inch stem of a dead shrub. "WHY didn't I think to keep my radio?!" she chided herself. As yet adrenaline was coursing more heartily than fear and her true peril was, thankfully, not consuming her thoughts.

Climbing up a sand cliff is like being one of those lizards that walks on water - you have to go fast to get anywhere, as slow movements allow the sand to slip away. Such speed, however, puts you at far greater risk of falling. There was nought for it, though. She had to climb.

She tried to climb using her feet and pushing up with her hands. With nary a foothold or a handhold, she slid downward with a cascade of sand and quickly returned her foot to the stem.

Determined to get up that cliff, for she had to, she dug her hands into the sand. Now I have no idea what use that was meant to be, since the sand would merely slide. But what other recourse did she have? She dug in her hands and leaned forward a bit, to displace her weight, and again tried to climb and pull herself upwards with her hands embedded in sand. She slid.

"What do I do if I fall in," she mused, "since no one knows I'm out here and there's no shallow spot to climb out?"

She didn't want to answer that question, however. So she dug in her hands and tried to climb with her feet, her knees, her shins, her elbows. Again and again. And again.

Until finally...finally...

She was back on the soft sand incline.

She turned over and scooted behind the ring of hatchlings, putting them gently into the hatchling bag. Twelve turtles saved from a watery, foodless, mud-engulfed death. Plus a specimen fit for a museum, even if it be it only the Mutter museum.

And yet she was still mere feet from the edge, with a metal ring, chicken wire, and survey flags from the nest, plus herself and the turtles, and they all had to return to the road. And there was no way she was going to be able to come back down for a single one of those items and return to the road alive; no, she could not make a second trip back from the crumbilng, sliding, eroding cliff. The cliff would not sustain the movement of two trips.

Hardly checked by this restraint, the researcherthrew the wire, the ring, and the flags one by one up to the road. Turtles, however, cannot be thrown. Or at least they shouldn't be. And the dead twins could not be left behind. She had only one choice.

Turtles in one hand, the specimen in the other, she gently pushed up from the sand and made a dash for it, the cliff breaking under her feet.

She didn't look back until she got to the edge of the road. And then she laughed, the relieved laugh of someone who's made it out of danger alive - maybe even the mocking laugh in the face of danger - but moreso the grateful laugh of someone whose belt God must have been holding onto to keep her from plunging into the abyss.

She piled the wire, the metal, the flags on the side of the road, to pick up another day. She placed the turtles in her saddlebasket and carefully closed the lid over them.

Caked in sand, she mounted her two-wheeled steed and rode off into the noonday sun and mild breeze, laughing and incredulous and emboldened, to save more turtles.

Monday, August 27, 2007

quotidienne

Last Sunday (previous post) was wonderful. Church was good - my research assistant had missed going to church all summer. Anyway, it was great, and my RA enjoyed it. Then the pastor, his wife, and their 7 kids invited us over for lunch - a little chaotic, but so wonderful to be at home with a real family. The chaos actually made it seem far more sincere and real and homey. The kids were all big talkers (ranging from 19 to 6, I think?), so that helped too.

It didn't rain this Sunday, so I couldn't go to church. But the guys on the island brought us in at mid-afternoon, rather than at 7pm, which was very kind of them. My RA & I watched movies Saturday & Sunday nights to relax.

The mosquitoes at work have been ridiculous. We were actually wearing bee-keeping masks & long sleeves to avoid getting an unwelcome acupuncture treatment. My arms were covered in them at one point. Thursday night they sprayed the whole island. I'm not sure how I feel about that, but I guess it can't be too much worse than being covered in DEET every day. They've started to come back, but it's better than the beginning of last week, for now.

Prov. 3:5-8
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and do not rely on your own insight.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make your paths straight.
Be not wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD, and turn away from evil.
It will be healing to your flesh
and refreshment to your bones.

Sunday, August 19, 2007

God is a good God, yes He is - woohoo!!

I woke up at 5:30 this morning, 20 minutes before my alarm, unable to go back to sleep. Groan. I get up, devotions, check the weather for the day: 81 degrees and cloudy. That's ok, it means that if the guys on the island are feeling charitable today and want to take us in early, rather than at 7pm, it's cool enough that we can do so.

Then I remember - oh yeah, it's Sunday. It's easy to forget what day it is when you work every day. But it's Sunday.

On Thursday, my boss said that if I wake up on a Saturday morning and it's raining and it looks like it's going to keep raining, than I can skip work rather than go to the island for 12 hours when I'll only have 2 hours of work to do. I figure if that applies to Saturday, then it equally applies to Sunday. So I've been praying for rainy Sundays so I can go to church.

I wake up this morning - no rain. Ohhh man. Well, I'll keep praying for it anyway. Hard. 6:15: no rain. 6:30: no rain. 6:45: no rain, but it's still pretty dark for it being 6:45. 6:50 I step out the front door to put on my sneakers - hey, it's sprinkling! I smile. And pray harder.

We walk down to the boat, it's still sprinkling - not enough that I could justify skipping work yet. "God, please make it rain harder, please!" over and over. We get to the boat dock, still just sprinkling. The guys are standing there talking, and we're just waiting - 5 minutes before the boat leaves.

And then -

it starts to rain harder. Just a little bit harder, not a downpour. And then a little harder. Still not a downpour, but definitely enough to skip work, in my opinion. I can't fight the smile now. I tell one of the guys who isn't talking that it's raining, and so we're not going in today. And we turn around and walk back to the house.

It's still raining now. It wasn't forecast to rain today.

Go God! I'm actually really excited about this. The last time I was this happy, can't-fight-the-smile happy, was when I got to go visit a couple of friends in Philly before one of them moved away. Totally God's doing this morning - He's awesome. Now I can go to church! AND my research assistant is coming with me to church - even better!

So keep praying for rainy Sundays :D!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

the rest of field season

It used to be that the field assistants who had my job had weekends off and someone else collected the hatchlings. Apparently there were a whole bunch of political and logistical issues with that, I got caught in the middle, and got saddled with the nasty results. I no longer have any days off (unless it looks to be pouring all day); to make up for that, can go in late or leave early on cooler days, provided my work's done. Yes, that means working Sundays, too. Working every day from July 30th to October 31st. Am I happy about this? No. Do I have legal recourse? No, not really.

So what I need is prayer to make it through this:
-prayer to make it through this physically & mentally & spiritually, because it's only been 3 weeks and I'm already exhausted in all 3 ways.
-prayer to not be bitter towards my boss or the other island bigwigs who decided this for me.
-prayer to find a church with evening services (I can't go in early or late on Sundays, there's only 1 boat - it's 8 hour days).
-continued prayer about decisions regarding my future and grad school. I'm still thinking about applying to grad school, and need to make that decision in the next month, if I'm going to apply. Definitely need guidance on that one. Would actually love to chat with anyone about that because internal processing isn't cutting it.
-prayer that I wouldn't be cut off from family and friends despite no longer being able to go visit them (but hey, you can always come visit me and have time to yourself while I"m at work).
-prayer that I'd get along well with my research assistant for the next 2 1/2 weeks.
-prayer for it to pour buckets on Sunday mornings - my boss said that, on weekends, if it was raining in the morning before I went to work and forecast to rain most of the day and/or be less than 80 degrees, then I can skip work that day. So pray for rainy Sundays in Tilghman, MD for the next 2 1/2 months!

Thanks & love to all of you :)

Thursday, August 9, 2007

baby terrapins

Here are the pictures you've all been waiting for - I know, I know, "ohhh, how cute!". This is what I work with now. If you want to see more pictures, drop me a line and I'll send them to you.


Hatchling tracks in soft sand; he was crawling toward the upper left hand corner of the picture.


A ringed nest with emerged hatchlings and the emergence hole.


They like to hide against the side of the ring, for protection and shade.


This one, Nahor, had a very pretty shell pattern with high contrast. Yes, his name is Nahor. If I name my bumps and bruises, I'm certainly going to name 1500+ hatchlings. Actually, I'm going through the Bible and using the names from there - so far I'm up to Abram.


A gaggle of terrapin hatchlings.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

photos 1

I finally took my new camera out to the island where I work, in hopes of photographing a few of the last nests of the season. Alas, I found no nests yesterday or today, and so can't show you any photographs of them; however, this does mean that nesting season is almost over and that I can stop looking at the ground and scratching at every area of disturbed dirt I see. Here are some of the more artsy photos of the island from today:


Eggshells of a nest depredated 6-7 weeks ago, most likely by a fish crow.





photos 2

And here are photos of what the island's like, and what I actually do.


This is what a typical nest looks like after we've found it: we put 4 labeled flags around it and cover it with rat wire (squares within wire = 1/2", for scale) to protect against depredation. Although most of the beaches I walk are open, like this one, the most nests are found in densely vegetated areas, not like a typical "walk on the beach".


This is my half/corner of the shed, where I measure & tag turtles that I catch, plus do whatever other work needs to be done; the stuff on the floor is my current project of mending bags for the hatchlings and putting things in order for putting rings around the nests, which we do to catch the babies. Oh, and you can see my cool hat!


This is what most of the island looks like - some spots barren, some spots with low scrubby plants, some spots filled with fairly dirty water, and lots of large equipment everywhere.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Workin' 9 to 5 (or 7 to 3:30)

Nesting season is nearly over, so I figured it was time for an update on how work's going.

Nesting is trailing off and will probably cease in the next week or two. We've found 3 nests this week, bringing the yearly total to 183. We had a few really big weeks (one day we had 29 nests, plus a mother turtle!). With so many nests, it's clear I've been able to form a search image for the nests. I'm still not perfect at it, and I imagine I'll find at least 50-100 more nests once the turtles start hatching, which is determined by either seeing a turtle crawling out of the ground (yeah, I know, "duh") or seeing an empty nest full of eggshells. It's been very dry here lately, however, which means the sand is soft, retains footprints, and easily moved, all of which make it hard to find nests.

INTERRUPTION: As I was writing that last sentence, a spiffy, tiny little insect crawled across my laptop. Mottled brown, 4mm long x 1.5mm wide, rounded abdomen, all three body segments are equal in length, getting progressively wider posteriorly. 2 antennae that terminate in what appear to be clubs, but have a kink midway down the antenna. Small black eyes. Does not appear to have wings and makes no attempt to fly. Beautiful creature!

Back to work...the babies should start hatching in about 1-2 weeks, which I'm excited for. Actually, I'm most excited for not having to stare quite so hard at the ground for the next 3 months, although I'll have to monitor for new nests emerging. We put rings/cages around the nests starting this week in order to capture the hatchlings. We then insert a tag under the skin & notch the hatchlings' shells before we release them.

I've been asked a number of times if it bothers me to "torture" the turtles in this way; honestly, the answer is usually "no." Most of you know me and my near-medical fascination for things and how I'd probably dissect nearly everything if it wouldn't kill it. Plus, I just don't think about it. Last week, however, I did have 2 problem turtles. One was a yearling that we tried to tag with the large tag & needle (as we would tag an adult), which merely put a hole in his leg and caused him to bleed a lot. As we were drilling the hole in the edge of the shell of an adult turtle later that day, I guess we hit a blood vessel and she started bleeding all over my hands, just in time for the mechanic whose power drill we were using to walk into the mechanics' shed (actually, that latter part was somewhat amusing). I felt bad about those. With potentially 1500-2000 hatchlings to tag this fall, though, I can't really think about it too much.

Unfortunately, I don't think the side project we were going to set up involving terrapin predation on marsh periwinkles is going to work out. I'm a bit disappointed in that, but also relieved that I won't have to frantically rush to do that work or begin a project I couldn't feasibly or professionally finish in 3 months.

Once I get the heavy-duty case for my camera, I'll take it out to the island and photograph the babies. I took some pics of the eggs on my film camera and will post those once they're developed.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Oddities and ends

I'm in a goofy mood tonight; I'm not sure why, because it was a long, hot day at work again. Maybe it's because there were no nests which, though bad, meant that I was able to catch an early boat off the island and therefore leave work early. I might be happy because I got a letter from a friend this afternoon. Possibly, my delight comes from making english muffin pizzas for dinner. I may even be joyful because of pigtails.

No matter. I think it's time for another edition of cool things I've seen/learned/thought this week. Here, therefore, we go.

*Someone else loves commas as much as I do. See Robert J. Samuelson's article this week in Newsweek. Oh, how I have always enjoyed putting commas everywhere. To my chagrin, I was often encouraged to remove them. Having this fellow comarade-in-commas, I shall leave them in, for pause.

*The terns have begun divebombing us in a terrifying new way. Over the past few weeks, they have gotten closer and closer to our heads, swooping within a foot while chattering and screeching in our ears. This week, however, they have adopted a new tactic: they dive 20 feet in front of me, level off below eye-level, then fly straight at my face. The sight of a bird aiming full-throttle for your eye is quite unsettling, even after they suddenly veer upward just before they get to your face, just close enough to plant a menacing screech in your ear.

*I saw an eastern kingsnake and a rough greensnake over the past few weeks, plus some banded watersnakes. All of them are quite beautiful creatures.

*Asian tiger mosquitoes are fierce, tenacious creatures. Their bite is worse than their buzz and they hurt like crazy. Apparently it hurts like none other when a mosquito bites you on your funny bone, too. They're resourceful, avoiding where I've applied bugspray or biting through it; this leads them, usually, to my face for their source of nutrition. But, as my assistant pointed out this week, it's not like in the tropics where they carry malaria and dengue fever (I think those are the 2 she mentioned).

*I need to listen far more than I do. My research assistant this week is a few years my senior. She is a wildlife veterinarian and turtle researcher in Brazil. While she doesn't speak English well, she has amazing stories to tell about her life & work there. Her stories make the work I do seem, although arduous, tame.

*Walking 8 miles per day in 90-degree weather cultivates quite an appetite. My predecessor for this job says it's 11 miles if you walk everything twice; I estimate about 8 for what I have to walk. I'll have to put an odometer on my bike when I cease having research assistants and am collecting hatchlings rather than looking for nests. Anyway, man am I hungry! All the time! I have never eaten so much food in my life.

*Walking all day on an island is great for day dreaming, thinking, and praying. Walking all day on an island in circles all day promotes thinking in mushy circles. In regards to the last post, my thoughts have become murkier rather than clearer over the past few days.

*From henceforth, actually last-May-forth, I can't hear Gen. 2:7-8 (about God forming man from dust and placing him in the garden) without seeing a little orange playdough man being taken from a smear of orange playdough and being placed in a playdough garden with bizarre trees, animals, and a plesiosaur. Formless and void? Tohu bohu!

*I cherish my fond memories of college, camp, and environmental ed. I often used to feel cursed by my memory that functions more as a steel trap than a permeable sponge, as it frequently retained more bad memories better than good ones. Now, however, I feel blessed by it. More than those memories, however, I realize that I cherish the folks with whom those memories were formed.


That's all for now. I think that I mellowed as I wrote that, so it wasn't as silly as I anticipated. That's alright, it's probably less frightening that way.

Friday, July 13, 2007

L'avenir and good cheer

Most of you know I chose/God chose for me not to go to grad school after my senior year of college, and that since then I've been job- and home-hopping. I told myself that I would try teaching and research for 2 years, then choose between the two and what I want to go to grad school for. If I want to go to grad school after said 2 years, I would need to apply this fall.

Hence a deluge of thinking the past few months. Not quite brooding, at least not most days; however, it is indeed heavy thinking. It's quite easy to do when I have 20-30 minute stretches of walking between nest sites at work while being attentive to little more than making sure I don't fall off the road.

I'm not done thinking yet. God, however, has been culturing this decision in me for a while. Previous grad school interviews, being among the women at Grace church this year, teaching, recent words from friends experiencing similar things, seeing the life of a non-believing researcher, conducting research myself, and of course Him speaking to me in the Word and myriad other ways are all combining to make this decision.

Of late, John 16:25-33:
"I have said this to you in figures; the hour is coming when I shall no longer speak to you in figures but tell you plainly of the Father. In that day you will ask in my name; and I do not say to you that I shall pray the Father for you; for the Father himself loves you, because you have loved me and have believed that I cam efrom the Father. I came from the Father and have come into the world; again, I am leaving the world and going to the Father."
His disciples said, "Ah, now you are speaking plainly, not in any figure! Now we know that you know all things, and need none to question you; by this we believe that you came from God." Jesus answered them, "Do you now believe? The hour is coming, indeed it has come, when you will be scattered, every man to his home, and will leave me alone; yet I am not alone, for the Father is with me. I have said this to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world."


I read this last night and can't really explain how or why, but it was more comforting than months of telling myself that, no matter what my decision, God will love me and care for me. Somehow this passage drove it heart-home. And in Him I have peace.

Then today, after some serious all-day pondering that started at about 6:51AM as I was walking to the boat to work, I was making dinner and resonated with
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
to give it away to You Jesus
Third Day, "Take my life".

It's a simple, sincere song, that I need to sing in my heart every day but particularly now. Maybe this rambling & vagueness would all make more sense if I said just exactly what's going through my mind at the moment, however, I'd prefer to wait on that. Pride, gifts, talents, wounds, growth, dreams, vessels, glory, beauty, peace, and desire are some of the larger factors bouncing around in my heart and mind. Let's just say it's not a decision I would have seen coming even a few months ago, but I'd prefer to dialogue about it personally while the thinking & deciding is still in progress.

Yeah, that's a lot of rambling and a lot of words, but it's all pretty important to me and, although it's very much an amorphous lump of dirt right now, I feel God is shaping and giving life to something amazing & different for me. Ok, that does sound vauge & weird. Anyway, what you can do is talk to me about it and pray for me about it - pray for peace in thinking (since most of you know that thinking isn't usually a light matter for me) & no brooding; for God's guidance and me to listen fully and attentively; and for me to do what He says & go where He leads; and for me to let go of pride that holds to self-glorifying dreams and instead to joyfully reach for & cling to what gives Him the most glory.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Caterpillar!




This past weekend I finally bought my first digital camera. When I went out to water my landlords' vegetable garden tonight, I just happened to find this big guy on the tomatoes, so he just happened to be the first picture on my camera. I think Jesus might just be a smidge fond of me to do that, don't you?

Now that I look at the pictures, I realize he was eating the tomato plant, but we'll let him stay there and maybe he'll pupate and then maybe I'll get to see a pretty moth.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Apollos, Cephas and Paul

"What I mean is that each one of you says, 'I belong to Paul,' or 'I belong to Apollos,' or 'I belong to Cephas,' or 'I belong to Christ.' Is Christ divided? Was Paul crucified for you? Or were you baptized in the name of Paul?" 1 Corinthians 1:12-13

Going to church here in MD has not been as easy or delightful an endeavor here in MD as it was in GA. I went to a church picnic yesterday, and, while folks were somewhat friendly, I really only had conversations with a few. There were many people who only glanced at me, said hi, and kept walking...didn't even introduce themselves. I even walked up to a few people to introduce myself, which is a stretch for me. Conversations that I did have were short as well. I didn't expect much attention, far from it...but I didn't feel very welcomed. This morning at church was worse, which is odd since I'd just met most everyone there the day before. I once again, both days, got to stand there awkwardly by myself.

I'm somewhat used to this in church, and I know that my connection to the community is partly on my shoulders, and I'm making a stronger effort here than I have in the past. I'm struggling, however, because it's nowhere near as welcoming and loving as the church family I had in GA - and this congregation is better than most in the area, I think. I really miss my church in GA and it makes Sundays very difficult. I miss those folks and their genuine love for God and each other. I guess I'm also seeing how I need to welcome folks into the church (and in my home, and in general) more openly, as well, rather than being shy as I usually am. To be proactive and conversational in loving them, which is, again, not in my comfort zone but so necessary.

And so when I'm sitting in church, missing my GA church, I keep butting up against the chapters in 1 Corinthians about divisions in the church. I know that Christ is not divided and He works mightily, no matter which church I'm in, for wherever two or three are gathered in His name.... I know that He can love me and speak to me no matter which church I'm in. But is it wrong to feel so much more part of one church than another? I don't rightly know. Maybe it's something I have to get used to as I potentially keep moving all over the place. Maybe it's something I move back to Savannah for, to be in that church, to be in that "milk and honey place" as a friend put it. I don't really know....I just know I need to joyfully plant in this church and be open to meeting Christ and His people there.

Friday, June 22, 2007

teenage mutant ninja flowers

Today I saw perchance the coolest flower I've ever seen in my life: a giant mutant siamese-twin black-eyed susan. I wish I had a picture of it to show you, but here's one in words (so it'll probably take a few thousand): There's lots of black-eyed susans on the island I work on, as it's apparently a native grass/plant that they like to have their in the recreated high marsh. Anyway, so we were walking along today and happened to be talking about the black-eyed susans, when I see one that looked more like a medium-sized sunflower. Lo and behold, it's actually a giant mutant siamese twin, or something like that. The stem was like a wide ribbon, about 1 1/4" wide and flat, with a rib on either side (like 2 stems stretched apart). At the top of the stem, it looked like 2 flower heads fused face to face, with their stamens super-enlarged (it almost looked like lips or a venus fly trap) and their small anthers circling them, with the peduncle (if that's what it's called? I forget) on the back of each half. It was crazy-looking.

What else this week...I've been getting bombarded by mosquitos and dive-bombed by common terns (they drop & fly about 1 foot above my head, because we have to walk close to their nests). I have mosquito bites all over my arms and neck (hey, just like my tan lines!), but I guess at least the mosquitos are well-fed.

Oh yeah, and I have an awesome Indiana Jones-ish hat now. It makes me enjoy every day just a little bit more because I get to wear it to work every day. Even my shadow makes me smile in the midst of the mosquitos and sand and all :-).

Cool things I saw this week:
- Mutant flower
- Divebombing terns
- tenacious mosquitoes
- the faces of high school students on a tour when I tagged one of the turtles they were releasing with a 12-guage needle

Friday, June 15, 2007

C Minor

"Open wide my door, my Lord, to whatever makes me love you more." - mewithoutYou.

For the second day in a row at work, no nests. But, I did get to see a mating aggregation of horsehoe crabs, which was really cool. Lots of males jockeying for position with the females (avg. 6 males per female; males 5-8" across, females 12-14" across). Lots of clusters of these all up and down the beach, and a number of males were washed up on shore, too. I don't know if it was the time of year or the abnormally cool weather or what exactly prompted them to do this, but we saw at least 70 horseshoe crabs today. And although the cool day at work meant no nests, it also meant that walking was far more comfortable and less exhausting.

Then tonight I watched my little brother's high school graduation - I'm so proud of my little bro! I also got to see extended family members, which has become a rare treat as I move to more distant locales and don't have regularly scheduled (if any) holidays.

I also got two letters today that were a huge blessing to me. I like letters, a lot. It turns out I can get mail down in MD, so if you want my address, please ask!

Back to the subject and the opening sentence...God has been giving me little things to smile at throughout the day to lift my spirits and remind me He's close, I think. It's pretty lonely in MD, even with research assistants coming and going each week. And around a bunch of scientists and other folks who don't always put God first in their language, well, it feels like it's easy to miss Him. But there are little things, little ways He makes me smile. So small I can't even recall most of them off the top of my head..but enough to lift me and remind me that He's there with me, watching out for me & loving me. And hopefully the ensuing, enduring response will be to love Him more.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

tidbits

We found 3 nests today, which isn't too shabby, but less than I was hoping. We did get one nest right as the mother was finishing laying it, so we captured her to take measurements and tag her (as we do with all live terrapins we find).

There were also an insane amount of mosquitos today. I literally could hardly walk for swatting them - I must have killed 50 on my arms alone in 3 minutes. One I got in the middle of a big, juicy bite. The prof doesn't like deet on the eggs, but we didn't really have a choice but to use bug spray (on ourselves, not the eggs). I did see a river otter, a muskrat, an eagle, the eagle being chased by least terns (which are maybe 6" long), and some very big horseshoe crabs.

The prof. and I have been talking a lot about setting up a side experiment regarding the terrapins. I'm definitely excited about this, and it may lead to masters' research material it seems. I definitely need to seek God's direction on what to do with that potential future step and where He wants me to go, as I'm still not feeling very strongly pulled in one way or another career-wise.

I've also been trying to find a church down here in MD. I went to the one church on the island 2 Sundays ago, and it wasn't a good fit for me: the people weren't very welcoming, and there were some statements that didn't seem quite theologically sound. I found a PCA church in the next decent-sized town (40 minutes away) this Sunday, which I like. The people aren't as friendly as in GA, but are fairly welcoming for a northern church, I guess. I'm hoping that I'll get to go there often enough to put down some roots; I'm still not sure when and how much I'll be working on weekends. This weekend I won't get to go because I'm going home for my little bro's high school graduation! Yayyyy! I'm really excited for him, and excited to go home.

Cool things I've seen the past few days:
- A hail storm while sitting inside a car with a sun roof. So cool!
- Another wicked storm blow out of the north last night, big thick black clouds.
- Black-eyed susans all over this barren island.
- Turtle nests, of course. Actually, I see those in my sleep, literally.

Saturday, June 9, 2007

Fair skin used to be stylish

Farmer tan, farmer tan
Looks as cool as a sunburn can
Rings my neck
and my arms
'Neath the sleeve, pale to alarm
Look out! Here comes the farmer tan.

Is it red? Listen, bud
It's as red as mosquito blood.
Does it hurt
every day?
It's been marked by burning rays.
Hey there, There goes farmer tan.

In the heat of sun
Thanks to photons galore
My tan line's begun
It is a real eyesore.

Farmer tan, farmer tan
All my neighbors have farmer tans
'Cause our work has no shade
But hey, at least
we get paid.

If I'm inside, all my fun's up
So any day that the sun's up,
You'll find the farmer tan!

Monday, June 4, 2007

we have a winner!

so...I found my first turtle nest today!

It poured buckets yesterday and this morning, so a) I was soaking wet by 9AM and b) it washed away all the tracks/nest marks that turtles had left this weekend and c) terrapins like to nest right after it rains. Not only did I see the telltale tracks, but I was able to see & dig up the nests too! It's pretty cool, I'll put up a picture once I get a digital camera (which will be, um, soon?).

The nest starts about 4" below the ground surface, and is flask-shaped, so when you're digging the first way you find it is when this little hole 4" under the ground caves in and your finger pokes through the little hole and into the bigger opening (the "egg chamber"). Then you excavate a little more and inside the egg chamber are usually about 9-14 1.25" long, .75" diameter eggs that look...well, kinda like light pink rugby balls is the best way I can describe it, I guess. Blunt ends, not like a chicken egg. When they're freshly laid, they're pink; after about 24 hours they turn white and once they turn white you can't handle them anymore because the baby turtles have started to develop inside and you don't want to scramble them. The shells are leathery, and easy to bend/break, not like a bird egg. Then you dig up the eggs and count them and mass them and record lots of data (but only if they're pink do you count/mass them, of course). Then you put them back, mark the nest with flags, recover the nest with dirt, and put mesh on it to keep out the predators.

We found 6 nests today, 5 of which predators hadn't gotten to yet. It was pretty cool, to learn how to follow more cryptic turtle tracks and see what I'm actually looking for and find the nests. Last week I had a couple days where I saw tracks and I dug and dug and couldn't find the nests no matter what, so finding these today felt pretty good.

Cool things I saw today:
- A 5 foot long, 2" diameter banded water snake that I nearly stepped on and I'm surprised didn't bite me
- A willet nest I almost stepped on (I was looking too hard for turtle tracks, I guess)
-Turtle nests!
- An osprey catch a fish and fly away with it in his talons

Thursday, May 31, 2007

so much sun

So I've been down here in MD at my main research site for about a week now. Here's how it works and what I'm doing:

I'm working for a prof whose main study site is on the western side of the Chesapeake Bay. My site is an unpopulated island on the eastern shore of the Chesapeake, an island that had all but eroded away 10 years ago and they've been rebuilding. My job is to find the diamondback terrapin nests as they're laid (which should start happening any day), mark them, count & measure all the eggs. Then about 60 days later, I'll catch the hatchlings from that nest, mark & tag them, count & measure them, and then let them go.

So far it's been going well, even though I haven't found any nests yet and hadn't seen turtle tracks prior to today. I pretty much walk all over the 1140-acre island all day, along 3 specific sites. Lots of walking. There's also no shade; my ears got pretty burnt today despite sunscreen. I'm thinking of buying a straw cowboy hat, even though the guys on the island would probably tease me for it. The island is unpopulated, and the only way over is by ferry (leaves at 7am, back at 3:30pm), and there's maybe 20 or so men working on the island, building it and doing maintenance and chemical tests and all. There's a big culture among them of giving each other a hard time, which i don't really mind, but wouldn't want to flat-out provoke. However, my ears do hurt pretty badly so I might buy a hat regardless. And put on sunscreen more often; I'm surprised I'm not more badly burnt than I am.

I do like it here, though, and am hoping to explore this weekend the little 1000-person island town I'm living in. Apparently, as it's a small town, everybody's already talking about me, for better or for worse :-).

Some cool things I saw today:
- my first set of turtle tracks
- lots of redwinged blackbirds
- a mother leading her baby ducks over the cracked mudscape and them falling into the cracks and then hopping out

Saturday, May 26, 2007

newness

Since my phone doesn't work so well at my apartment in MD, I'm setting up this blog in hopes of keeping up with all my friends. I'm hoping to share pictures & stories of what I'm doing because, unfortunately, I don't get to hang out with you and tell you what's going on every day. And please talk back to me, either here or e-mail or however you feel like doing so! :-)